It’s the same night again, i know this feeling, this feeling is too friendly, but the feeling that’s unwanted.
Again the feeling of broken! Again the hearts heavy, once again i couldn’t handle things.
I am strong!
The wound is same, i can feel my hearts ready to burst.
And i am just so used to it now, that my mind deny to cry!
It says enough of this cycle of getting hurt, let’s stop the cycle now!
Let’s just stop it! By not expressing your weakness anymore.
Because i am tired now, so tired that the only thing left is to write.
To write down the words spoken after my breakdown, because this time i cannot affort to cry, but in the hope i might remember this feeling everytime i read this writing of mine and each word i suffered while typing.
I am lost once again, well its again and again, can’t afford to lose myself, want to cry out loud, but the mind says not right now!
The feeling that i am used to, is so strong that i sometimes feel,somethings’s wrong when everthing goes fine, waiting for that feeling to break again..
Here i stand to fall again!
Waiting for someone who could just stop these nights, and the feelings of mine.
This is the time, where i don’t need motivation, no practical thinkings but just a support! Just to listen my heart.